Oh how I Want to be a good momma

Mothering is really something special. I really love it but it is so hard at times. Lately I've been feeling so emotional about it. I want to be the best I can be for my kiddos! Am I doing that?! I don't know, but I do feel like I'm trying and that's all I can do. I'm trying with the help and guidance of my sweet Jesus to be the best mommy to spicer Beth and axl joe. After all, these two deserve nothing less than my best. I have felt so judged by those around me lately, probably just an attack and no one is judging at all, but nonetheless that's how I feel. I feel like I've been the topic of conversation with my decisions as a mom. No one likes to feel that way. But when you go against the norm I guess people will talk. I've felt so alone lately. Again, probably an attack and self-pity. I'm so thankful that no matter what my Jesus reminds me of what he's called me to as a wife and mommy and now teacher to my kiddos. I'm thankful his word reminds me daily of what he's called me and my family too. Some may not understand, but that's ok. It's me and my family and yours is you and your family. I don't judge you. As for me and my house we will serve the Lord! God is faithful and I am thankful! Just needed to share from my heart today. :)